Archive for January, 2008
Lower Back Hurt
I cannot remember if it is a monthly thing.. but i am jotting this down.. so that i would remember for next month. But the man thinks that the lower back hurt.. has to do with the menses that is coming on its way. I am not taking an pain killers for now.. but my fibroids had been a wee bit swollen today too. So maybe ya.. the menses is coming perhaps.. and this is the symptom.
Panic Attacks
I never used to have panic attacks before i had my kid.. but during my pregnancy.. i had what you called panic disorder. The strange thing is after having the kid.. it wasn’t that bad anymore.. but once in a blue moon.. i get the attack. Just like last Sunday at the mall. I was happily laughing with someone that i know.. and it happened. I had a kinked below my breast.. and then it started. I was all sweaty.. and felt like fainting.
So what is a Panic Attack..??
“Panic attacks are a common feature of all types of anxiety. A panic attack is a sudden rush of intense fear that is accompanied by physical sensations that can include heart palpitations, dizziness, sweating, and nausea. Anxiety disorders include panic disorder with and without agoraphobia (recurrent, unexpected panic attacks accompanied by fear of future attacks and may involve avoiding places or situations associated with the attacks). In 2002, just under 1 million people 15 or older reported having suffered from panic attacks at some point during their lifetime, according to Statscan in its Canadian Community Health Survey results. “
It didn’t last long.. just a couple of hours.. and i’m back to normal. As much as I hate it.. i have to learn to live with it. Therefore, I am doing alot of research on it lately.
No Ibupufren
I haven’t taken painkiller for 3 days now.. not because my fibroids doesn’t hurt.. but because the pain is quite bearable for the last few days. I’m pretty happy about it.. and am counting the days.. to see how long this is gonna last.
Soup In A Can..?
They say that soup in a can need not be a bad thing… but as Asian in the western part, one only drinks soup .. when one is ill or when one has too much.. to eat. Missy Moo loves her Campbell ABC soup.. and asked for them constantly for dinner. I’m always torn in between giving her what she wants.. and feeding her right. What sort of nutrition.. and good food value is there in a can of campbell soup..?? will it keep her full for the nite..?? Lets hear what the experts have to say:
In the can
“Using canned ingredients doesn’t mean you’re compromising on nutrition. In fact, some studies put canned vegetables on top, containing higher levels of phytochemicals, such as beta carotene and lycopene, than their fresh counterparts. That said, sodium can be a problem. So when serving canned beans, be sure to drain and rinse well to reduce the saltiness. Look for low-sodium stock and taste soups and sauces before you add salt.
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In Tune With My Body
I donch know about other people .. but I’m very in tuned with my body and its biorhythm, i certainly do not need a thermometer or any device to tell me that I’m ovulating .. or that this is the time to make babies .. if i wanted one. But this only happened after i had my kid… before it was never like that.
There are signs to show that I’m ovulating.. it’s like the body is trying to deceive me to have another baby. Like I can feel white discharge coming out .. during that time.. and i feel alot more flushed .. and hot.. and wanting to do “stuff” .. if you know what i mean. Therefore, the more I’ll have to restrain myself.. if i donch want any more kids. What about you..?? or other women out there..?? are you the same ..?? can you feel what your body is telling you..??
Taking Good Care Of Your Health
For those who already know me, you know I have fibroids .. but i guess you don’t know much about it. I should have taken care of my fibroids.. before it got too big .. to do anything about it. But before I had my baby .. it didn’t bother me abit, that was the only reason why i didn’t do anything about it. Do i regret it now..?? yes.. certainly.. because the only way to get rid of it now..is to have it operated.. and i might lose my uterus as well. My fibroids has grown to be as big or even bigger than a grape fruit.. and last year it started to hurt really bad.
For those who feels bloated all the time, or even feel lower abdomen pain when exercising.. do visit your gynecologist.. and have it taken care of. Because when it is small, you can shrink it without having to go into surgery.
When You Are Young
When you are young, you think the world of the boyfriend.. and even if he was an a$$hole.. you still make excuses for him. Missy Moo’s babysitter seems to be always bullied by her b/f .. yet she doesn’t see that he is just not worth it. But i guess when you are young.. one donch have the experience of an old fart like us. I wished i could show these youngsters in a movie.. about how stupid i was when i was younger.. so they learn from my experience.. but i guess .. it’s not possible.. so one has just gotta let them learn it thru’ their own mistakes… and lots of weeping.. and heartaches.. i guess.
Why Am I Here..??
The weather is sure getting cold.. and winter is really here this time round.. no mistakenly it alright. Missing the food from home so much, one cannot explain how much i wanna eat the food from home.
Do i missed home for the people..?? Nah.. !! but i miss the food, the weather.. the shopping .. the convenience.. the night life.. the pubs.. the movies.. and things that i can do back home.. wherelse there is nothing to do here. The only I get here.. is having coffee from Tim’s. Yes.. you heard right.
So what the hell am I doing here.
Missy Moo Is Sick
My Missy Moo is sick too.. ! caught a cold from somewhere.. and today we found out that it had to be the kids who were in our store.. a few days ago. The cheek of the inconsiderate mother .. to let her sick kids play with mine..! Arrrghhh..!! don’t you just hate ppl like that..! yet Missy Moo was telling a customer . .not to come too close to her.. because she is sick… and Missy Moo is only 4 yrs old.. and the irresponsible mother is like 40 yrs old..??!!? *slap forehead in disbelieve*
My Health
I’ve never had my fibroids pain this bad.. but this month.. it is really killing me. Every 4hrs.. i had to take pain killer .. failing to do so.. i would be in pain for hours. This month. .the pain is so bad.. i wished i could die. The other nite.. i thought i needed to go to the hospital.. but i just hate giving up my hard earned money .. to the hospital. I just can’t wait for immigration to be done with my papers.
Not Looking Forward
My fibroids are very painful.. but i am so not looking forward to an operation to be honest. Anything can happen on the operation table.. and if i came out alive.. the recovery time is so long.. and i know that i cannot expect Mr Moo to do everything on his own.. so timing is essential here. Gotta make sure.. that i have it done when it is not busy at all.. with the business. I better call immigration tomorrow too. This planning to move the business is also very stressful for me.
Ahhh.. The Pain Returns..
Yes.. the menses came. .and the back hurts. . and of course the fibroids ain’t letting up. JOY..!! we didn’t even go visit the in-laws.. since the MIL came to visit instead.. with her sister. Didn’t stay long.. but still the kid saw her grandmother.. and i guess that’s what counts. Really didn’t wanna stress myself too much.
Yay..!! Garbage is Done ..Finally..!!
Mr Moo finally remember to do garbage this Thursday..!! and no .. we donch get garbage picked up every week or everyday.. it’s every 2 weeks here. You wondering how i survived..?? Ya.. i know..!! how..?? Anyways.. after 1.5 months..! yes.. you heard right.. 1.5 freaking months..! till i got tired of reminding.. and being a pain.. that i gave up.. i just let it be.
Well .. it’s finally done. . and i’m freaking happy .. lor..! GARBAGE you know..! Why i donch bring it out..?? firstly it’s in the basement.. and secondly .. it’s so darn cold.. and because of my fibroids.. i can’t be carrying garbage up and down.. several times.. and then go out on the roads.. and have them picked up.
Doing What Must Be Done
Woke up and straight away .. my darn fibroids hurt..! but one gotta do what you’ve gotta do.. coz’ it was 11am already. No breakfast.. but cooked for my kid first.. and then watched out for work on the puter.. and then after Mr Moo took his dump.. i went to pack all the food for lunch ready.. and got changed and left for work without breakfast. And I hate taking painkiller before having food.. but what can you do right..?? coz’ i need to cook and stuff.. so no.. i’m not a saint.. but doing what gotta be done.
Enough Money
Mr Moo informed me this afternoon.. that he had enough for the rent and mortgage..! woohoo..! without dipping into our reserve. I feel really good about it. I know he is trying hard to make the darn business work..! i wished we had more cash to play around with. And hopefully the online thing will pick up again. We were doing so good.. till dear pain in the ass decided to play nasty.
