What A Wasted Day..!

Yes..!! a real wasted day..! coz’ my fibroids started acting up at 3pm. .and didn’t let up the whole nite. Even with painkillers..! Suxs..!! didn’t go outta the house at all.. but cook up some stuff.. so that my kid can get some home cooked food. While Mr Moo helped to clean up a little. So i’ve been taking ibuprofen on a 5 hourly basis… just to keep it at bay today.

No Clots But Loads Of Pain

Strange as it is.. with so much pain.. with my menses .. there was no clots.. coming out . .like those previous months. And yes.. the fibroid pain still persist.. and I take my pain killer religiously.. even though sometimes.. i try not to. But why suffer when you donch have to..?? All because I wanna see how really bad it is.. and not masking it all the time.. and bidding my time.. till i can finally do the surgery and take those damn things out..!

What A Way To End The Year

Mr Moo got a call from the Revenue Dept asking him to keep up with his paper work.. and prolly wants him to pay his taxes. And even though he had explained that business didn’t picked up as he had anticipated.. they of course didn’t care. And had asked about our equity. I’m not too happy about it .. to be honest. But what can you do .. when he had been trying his darnedest right..? One can always stay hopeful and positive I guess.

Tired Of Asking For Help

Yes.. quite tired.. when you keep explaining why it is hard on the tummy .. when you have to bend over to pick up stuff. But nope.. his excuse was he didn’t see the towel.. in a 12 by 12 room.. right smack in the middle of the room.

So my resolution.. to hell with it.. and no more asking for help..! If it hurts.. it hurts..i just gotta do what gotta to be done. Like every Thursday is either garbage or compost day.. but yet.. he forgets to bring it out all the time. Before we had our kid.. i walk like 5 mins.. out to the road.. with garbage bags.. even when i am pregnant.. or when i had just given birth.. i did that.. but now that i donch get enough rest.. i donch do it no more.. and it has been a month or more .. since he has done garbage. You would think if one cannot remember on the day itself.. one should bring it out the nite before.. ?? but nope.. no amount of reminding helps. So what do you do..?? give up lah..! let him be.. !

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Some People Just Needs To Be Ignored

Out delivering gifts and dropping into some people’s house on Christmas eve, just to show face, but some people just needs to be ignored like my partner’s long time buddy. No matter what you do for him nor say to him, he wants to have the last say.. and WIN.

We bought him a bottle of fruity wine with only 7% alcohol because we knew that his g/f is pregnant. Insisted that she can’t drink because of the alcohol..and some documentary on tv.. about damaging the baby’s brain. But it’s ok.. to be puffing cigarettes in front of his g/f..?? Oh btw.. we don’t even really know if the baby is his or not. Not to be evil but i highly doubt so. Afterall, he had been with 100s of women.. and none got pregnant till this one. Highly suspicious if you ask me.

A Wasted Day

With Mr Moo sick.. my tummy relentless. .and wouldn’t let up.. mostly because Mr Moo needed rest..so we didn’t do nothing at all. I made chicken rice for dinner.. and that was it. .besides cooking lunch of instant noodles for my kiddo. Cleaning up. .and washing of course..no choice one. But mostly nothing done.. and Christmas eve is tomorrow… not really finished shopping.. but what can one do right..?  Didn’t even attempt to go to the outlaws.

Mr Moo Is Sick..!

That Mr Moo ahhh..!! sick still can go out yesterday to his buddy house.. to play Guitar Hero..!!! i only just found out today.. that he was down with a cold. .for a few days now. Nope.. he didn’t seems bad or anything.. the last few days.. and he didn’t tell me a thing… therefore i was quite surprised.. that he started sniffing and blowing today.

Said he wanted to sleep early, early.. but still end up sleeping at 2am. Men..!!

Mr Moo Is Out Again!

Yes. .the man is out again. .at 1am.. in the middle of the nite.. playing Guitar Hero at a buddy’s place.. so he said. I actually donch mind it that much .. to be honest with you .. but to think that i’m in freaking pain from my god damn fibroids.. and he is out there having fun with a buddy .. that seems to me only wants to make use of him.. and is really not a friend. I cannot fathom why. But tis’ his buddy.. so *shrug*.. i ain’t gonna say a thing.

Are You Stupid..?? Or Donch Care..??

The man upsets me .. when he doesn’t think. I freaking hate the cold weather.. that’s why i never go outta the store..once i am in the store. The man bought me a cup of coffee.. and that was it for the whole day. Nothing to go with lunch . .that i had brought from home.. just 1 miserable cup of coffee. Normally i would freaked out.. but because of my bad throat.. and painful ulcers.. meaning i need freaking A DRINK..! and not pop or anything too sweet because i’m diabetic.. but nope.. !! he went out to get a pizza.. and didn’t get me a FREAKING drink..!! normally, if we still had the cooler turned on.. we’ll have some drinks in the cooler.. but to save on electricity we turned the cooler off.. and of course there is no more drinks in it… so i can’t just conveniently jeopardize my health .. by drinking the pop in it. Yes.. and i asked him.. before going home.. if he was STUPID or just donch care..?? coz’ my freaking tongue was hurting like HELL..!!

Peeing In The Store

I hate going downstairs to pee .. at the store.. because it is so freaking cold. We have the heat turn off to save money on electricity and gas bills. Even the hot water is turned off.. because of that. I try not to go .. if i can.. especially if i am only here till 5.30pm… and when the kid wants to pee, the man will have to bring her.. coz’ i just hate going down there. Just too cold for comfort.

Donch Even Get Me Started On Doctors

Yes.. the God damn tongue still hurts. .and i can’t figure out if it is the tongue only or the teeth as well.. for chewing too much ..! And donch even get me started on why i haven’t been to the doctor’s. With no MSI card. .i’m way too el-cheapo to go pay the God damn hospital.. and doctor.. any money for a diagnosis. And all because we are being slacker.. with the God damn immigration thing. Now I still have to wait till after Christmas.. till i can find out about anything..! what a bummer..!! suxs big time..! if you ask me..!! Why didn’t i think of myself first.. before the business.. i donch know..! this is not selfless.. this is call.. GOD DAMN FREAKING STUPID..!

The Man Shined

Yes.. my mouth was really hurting me bad.. and the man shined.. and came thru’ for both me and the kid. Did everything from decorating to cleaning up.. and vacuuming the house.. and not only that. .cleaned up after all our guests left. He really did good..!! if i weren’t having my “thing” .. and in so much pain..!! the man will be getting some brownie points used tonite.. muahhahaha!!

My Mouth Hurts

Yup..! you heard right..!! my tongue hurts.. and so does my teeth..! too much ice eh..?? frustrating.. to say the least.. coz’ eating hurts like hell..! no more fun..! not like i had alot .. eating the food here. But you know what I mean..!

And the worst part is .. i’ve got so much to do today.. to prepare for the party tomorrow.

A Really Hard Time

I have a really hard time.. when I am having my menses. Because of my fibroids.. the pain is so bad.. that words cannot describe it. This month.. i’ve been taking ibuprofens every 4hourly.. for fear that it would be so painful like this afternoon.. that it took a few hours.. to stop.

I shouted at the lil’ one.. because i was upset.. that Mr Moo .. didn’t pick up after her. I hate it.. when i turn into an unreasonable B.I.T.C.H but i really can’t helped it.. or maybe i just donch wanna be nice at that moment.

That Time of The Month Again

Yup..! it’s that time of the month again..! today is the 2nd day..! so i’m gonna stay home with my brat… and make sure i don’t leak my pants.. muahhahaha!!

Stop Blaming

I have to stop blaming the man for the pain in my fibroids.. ! although i donch say it out loud.. i know… i blame him.. for the situation that i am in.. because of the immigration thing that we took so long to do.

But i am equally to be blamed.. because i always wanna pay the bills first for the store.. and the staff before all else. I have to stop blaming.. to stop myself.. from being resentful at times.. and feeling pitiful for myself. Not healthy..! gotta move forward.. ! despite hard.. i still gotta..!

Celebration For The Man

Wished I had thrown a party for the man and the brat together as planned.. but having the tummy pain and all. and plus no good jobs recently .. sure makes one .. feel not up to it. But I guess the man donch do anything much for me.. during my birthday.. so we are kinda equal right..?? muahhahahha!! Oh well.. he did buy a few things for himself.. during the trip to the city.. so i guess.. that’s his birthday present. Just bummer.. that the online thingie.. didn’t last.. i was really hoping to give everyone a great Christmas.

Red T-Shirt

Some red t-shirt wearers are sure a pain in the butt.  If she had so much balls.. she should write about those “ang mohs” in english.. and not use her dialect ..!! what sort of obnoxious she is.. when she hides behind .. using a language that only her croonies understand..???!!??